Round 2- Colorado LT 2008: His Will

Another year, a new chapter.
So, after coming back from LT 07, I really thought that was it. I'd come home this summer, get a job, have a studio of students and work with a band, maybe take a class or two at UC, do a Collegiate Bible study at the church. But, after 90843 (that may be a slight overexaggeration) questions about whether or not I was going back... I felt like I should go back. So, I signed up, and began the journey again. This time I also volunteered to be a driver, to help out the group, and to serve others out in Colorado... which meant I was going to need a newer car, one that coul make it out there, handle the mountain terrain, and come back. But, over time, I really wasn't sure if I should, or even wanted to go back anymore. I went ahead and sent my support letters out and filled out all the necessary paperwork anyway, and continued praying about where God wanted me. Over a month into my support raising, I had no money, no support, and no car. I continued asking God if I was still supposed to go, or if this meant I needed to stay home. Then, one Friday one of my support envelopes came in the mail, and me, being the one that asks God for all sorts of outrageous signs... asked God for 10% (which would have been $100) and for it to be from some outrageous person. Well, least to say, God provided me with that $100 from a least likely source, and 2 hours later, my stepdad was calling me to tell me that he received a big bonus check at work and was giving me $300 of it toward the program. Talk about answered prayers!
To make a long story short, within the week I had a enough money to pay off the program ($700), and within a little over 2 weeks, I had 100% of the support I needed, and a new car.
God works in mysterious ways, and He works on His own time. Which is why worrying is useless... it only means we are lacking in faith. When we have faith in God and give it up to Him, there is no need to worry, because He is faithful to answer, and He WILL answer, in His own time, not ours. I'm learning this more and more every day.
I'm really interested and excited to see what God is going to do through my life this summer. I have a huge heart to go out there and evangelize to people. Evangelism I have learned comes in many different forms, but all comes down to the main point of sharing Christ's love and redemption. I personally want to go out to Colorado and just love on people, to show them a love they may have NEVER known before... that they would see the Light reflected in my life, and come to know our Savior.
I am also interested, excited, and maybe a little afraid even, to see what God is going to do in my life. To be honest, this past semester was a rough semester at school for me. Taking 20 credit hours and teaching was insane. I also felt a lot of pressure in areas of my life, and felt very weak in a few places. I learned several big lessons, one of which is that God is totally in control, and I forget that way too often. He has control and there is no need for me to worry and try to take care of things on my own without His help, because I will just stumble and fall, time after time (and believe me, I did). I felt like I had a lot thrown at me, without time to process everything. I feel like this summer will be a lot of processing, some grieving, and a lot of grace and love. It will also be time to take a deeper look into some of my past fears and hurts, that are affecting my present. God has already spoken to me about this, and yes, I'm a little apprehensive, but it will be a time to lean on Him and let Him hold me in His arms. A time of cleaning, emptying out, and huge time of restoration.
I thank all of you that have generously contributed gifts, time, encouragement, prayers, love and support to this summer. It will be life-changing!